Lameness

I used to be fun. I know that it is hard to believe, but I swear that it is true. I used to stay out late, go to parties and bars, and generally be a good time. No more.
Anyone who knows me now knows that I am more likely to be found asleep at 10pm on a Friday night than out (or getting ready to go out as I usually was at that time in college).
While marathons made me lame (or perhaps allowed me to indulge in my new found lameness), Ironman is already bringing me to a new level of lame. Whereas I used to fall asleep drooling on myself at ten pm, now I am fast asleep by nine.
So, now I am both working out two hours a day, and am pretty much incredibly wiped every day by eight o'clock; unfortunately, that's not the worst of it. I realized how completely lame I am when I checked my summer schedule and figured out that my summer looked essentially like this:
-Run 200 miles from Madison to Chicago in a relay, sleeping in vans and on church floors
-Ride across Iowa for a week while sleeping in tents and trying to avoid eating pork on a stick (don't ask)
-Half Ironman in Racine, WI (5.5+ hours of racing)
-Madison "training camp"
- Course rides for both races, maybe a sprint or an Olympic distance tri thrown in
Lamer than the fact that essentially every weekend of my entire summer is planned out (and that I will be pedaling away like the wicked witch for almost all of that), is the fact that I am excited about all of this (but yes, I will still complain about it when the time comes).
I was thinking about all of this as I got in the pool this morning before work (at 6am). While I know that I am becoming lamer and lamer, at the same time there is something in me that believes (that has to believe) that this is what I need to be doing right now. There is something in me that believes that discipline is better (or that I desperately need it) than doing whatever you want whenever you want and that running Boston or doing an Ironman is worth giving up a night (or two, or thirty) at the bar.
As of the schedule right now, I am still able to have a tiny bit of a social life. Please remind me that I said all that this summer when I have NO social life at all (I'm counting on all three of you who read my blog!)